Tuesday, August 13, 2013
So it has been awhile huh... im not even sure whether anyone would bother reading this anymore.. If no one does them it would be best actually.. just need somewhere where I can note down my thoughts and feelings.. And im not so keen to the idea of knowing tt people are reading this, its like invading privacy.. Sooo... When was the last time I blog... Years ago! Alot has happened.. Gained a few not so close frens..more of acquantences.. Loses lots of close frens... Got a job.. Resign.. Got a new job n on the verge of resigning.. Yadayadayada.. The reason i decided to start blog this is because i realised that I have been ignorant towards myself lately.. Age is catching up on me but theres alot of things i havent achieved yet.. I dnt even have the determination and not even making an effort to achieve anything.. My mind seems to refuse to connect with my heart.. Whatever n whenever that little voice in me says, for example..hey huda you'r getting fat.. you should start jogging.. , my mind will be like.. 'Lets go.. But wouldnt it b better if i stay at home and watch some show instead' contemplating.. Ype tts the word.. Sometimes my mind and heart will get into little argument n my mind would just shut down.. Yes.. Literally shut down.. Like not think of anything.. So hopefully i will hv more actions once i jot down what i really think and feel.. An update.... The last time i blogged was when someone left me for another.. Tts the reason for the jiwang2 posts and lyrics.. I believe that everything happened for a reason.. Because of that person leaving me, I met someone else.. Yearps.. Someone who is so much better in so many ways... We have been together for 5yrs plus nw.. Kalau jodoh takla kemana.. I dont have that many frens anymore.. once someone told me that once you grow older, your circle of frems will get smaller.. I dont believe her then.. Till now.. I'd worked with smrt for 5yrs as a customer service leader at orc.. For 5yrs i was in the tank.. Haha.. I gained alot of frens then.. I enjoyed wrking w the team even though some of them really get on my nerve sometimes.. They were like my 2nd family.. I was dying to go out.. Reason being that i domt want to sit there for 10, 20yrs.. I have dreams to achieve.. So i resigned last yr, dec 2013.. That was wen i realised tt no matter hw much u sacrifice urself for wrk, some bosses just dnt knw hw to appreciate you.. Nw im working with cpg.. Its a facilities management company.. Dealing w cleaning, pest control and horticultural matters at MOEHQ.. I hate the job!! I dont regret resigning from smrt.. I am like an octopus... Even my boss dnt trust me.. I dont even know what im interested in... Im old.. Not tt old.. But old enough to have a plan.. N i dont.. Till next time..
and it rages on. | 5:23 AM |
